Learning from Job

I wrote this about a month ago.   My situation has since changed having now received a diagnosis but I thought I’d record this as a blog to help me remember some of the important things that God has taught me through Job.

The specialists have not been able to shed any light on things for me.  I still seem to be getting ever so gradually weaker but God has been very gracious through it all.  Each night my father reads some scripture and we pray together.  It’s been really good.  Last night we read James 5 where he reminds us of the endurance of Job and the Lord’s mercy to him.  I’m so thankful for the book of Job.  I find it hard not knowing what is wrong, not knowing if God plans to restore me, keep me sick or even take me home.  I find it hard to understand what God is doing but last night my father reminded me that God never gave Job an answer.  He never knew why he was sick.  He didn’t know if God planned to restore him or slay him.  He desperately wanted an answer but God in his mercy withheld it.  If he had an answer he wouldn’t have learned patience and his faith would not have been vindicated.  I wonder too whether he would have been able to understand if God did give him an answer.  Jesus said to his disciples, ‘I have many things to tell you but you cannot bear them now.’  Anyway, I guess what I’m trying to say is that I felt encouraged when I considered that the uncertainty and mystery that I struggle with is actually a token of God’s mercy – to prove and strengthen faith, while at the same time not giving us more than we can bear..

I’ve also been thinking, how wonderful heaven will be, not just because pain and sorrow are gone, but because it will be intellectually satisfying.  Our questions will be answered, the mysteries of providence unravelled – our minds will be so perfected as to be able both to bear and enjoy the glorious and infinite wisdom of God.  ‘Now we see in a mirror dimly but then face to face, now I know in part but then I shall know fully even as I am fully known.’


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